Father's Day

This day is a day that has great happiness as well as some sadness for me. The first Father's Day after my dad died was incredibly hard. It was only a couple months after his death and the depth of grief was unbelievable. People have always said that such things get easier with time. Hmmm... 7 years later and I wonder how much time they mean. I guess in the realm of feeling debilitated by the grief, that has improved. But I miss him just as much, if not more, as time goes by. There are things I want to share with him, ask him... times I just want to give or to get a hug from him.... And of course, there is Carl and Willow. How much I would love for them to share a walk, to play together and to learn from the great wisdom and love I feel blessed to have received from my father. And then I look at Brian and how he is with our children. The love they share and all they learn from each other. I remember sitting with my dad in the hospital and talking about love. Sharing that I thought Brian and I were serious. He expressed his concern as a Dad and his fear of all the boys out there and what they could be. But he also expressed his trust and faith in my knowing the right person to have a future with. What a wonderful man! I feel blessed to be celebrating 2 fathers today.
My father and all he taught me and all he continue to teach and be to me.
AND Brian and the amazing father he is to our children and the inspiration he is to them and me!

It's been a lovely day.